I understand if my friends have other groups of friends, but it irritates and frustrates me how its obvious that they are favored over us. So we've properly named these 2 groups of friends: Nicole and PCD (Pussycat dolls) cuz lets face it....Nicole is the only one that anyone actually knows. So we've come to the conclusion....Nicole is always getting the better shit plus he doesn't yell at them and call them names when he's mad and frustrated. PCD on the other hand gets called bitches and stupid if we don't give him what he wants -.-.....yea sorry to say, but i'm jealous of Nicole and I kinda hate it that he doesn't see that he treats us way too differently. Plus I feel if PCD ever met Nicole...we would be rude and bitchy towards them...so thank goodness he refuses to let PCD and Nicole hang out together *which is another rant for another time*

I need to buckle down for just 10 days...concentrate on studying for my finals then I can be in my car driving my way home. So hopefully I can just stop being lazy and "Suphita-ish" for 10 days....in the end it would hopefully pay off.

yaaaaaah.....nuy jang ler. mai yak ahn nangseh. dta wah mee ik mai gee wun. deiw dai gab bahn ik laow. gab baan laow yuu bpen duhn. YAAAY yak hai mah lerw lerw....dta dtong sob yebun gab gawlee gorn x.x ja dtai naeh non.....

Got back to the city on Tuesday, but instead went over to Jen's cousin's place where she had a "get together" and by get together we mean drink.


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안대요....My comp died on me....it won't turn on ㅠ.ㅠ I think its finally time I get a new laptop *sigh* hopefully my dad can fix it so I can go and get the pics and bookmarks I had on it and I can just retire it >.< But for now I have to borrow Alize's laptop...thank god its only the weekend though, and Monday. Tuesday I'm going home for break and then I'll have my desktop and brother's laptop to use. Maybe I can find a way to be productive this weekend with the lack of computer ToT. I have a Korean skit I need to memorize...so maybe I'll do that......

2 more weeks till home again.....can't wait ^^.....maybe i'll do a proper entry when i decide to procrastinate my hw later

Got registered into Thai school again....even though that means I have to do independent study and then go home to take midterms and finals. It's all worth it though, because I actually like going. The kids there are so adorable and its interesting to see non-Thai/Asian people there doing an epically awesome job learning ^^. But YAY for me now being in the first grade ^_^ I think it goes up to the 8th grade @_@ So many years left to go >.< I went from Pre-K to Kindergarten 2, skipping Kindergarten 1 LMAO I'm so cool =P. Can't wait to go to classes during the Christmas break...the only thing is taking tests is gonna be a bitch especially with the teacher who doesn't even know who I am DX

Now to finish and catch up on my Japanese......my teacher told me I sucked at grammar soooo I have to hop on that and figure it out before it's all too late DX

Sadly the rest of the Miyavi tour got cancelled....but I'm surprisingly OK with it right now because that means he can go home see his wife and his baby and rest up. Reading all these things about his health and stuff was really upsetting. Especially some of his tweets made me go =( Miyavi take care of yourself~ So yea I'm fine as long as he gets so rest and take care of himself. Also hopefully when he reschedules it would be awesome if it could be in December, so I'll be home and the most expensive form of transportation will cost me $2.25 and there wouldn't be this whole-hop-on-a-bus-at-midnight-so-we-get-back-to-school-in-time-for-class-and-be-deprived-of-sleep-situation.

School's still a bitch and I'm so damn tired.....I already wanna go back to the city and sleep in my comfy bed <3

Yes I'm blogging at 1:40AM. I went to go see my adviser...basically I have no idea what I'm doing with my life at this point in time. He's telling me to go to Japan as soon as I can, but I don't feel like I'm mentally prepared for it. I mean being in Albany I want to go home like every other weekend and I know that when I want to go home I can. I'm a person that tends to get homesick if I don't know anyone or if I'm not with family. The only way I'm surviving Albany is Alize. So if I'm in Japan, a country I don't even know and have no friends or family around I can see myself being a mess. I know after a while you can get used to it and things would get better, but its the time before that that's scaring me. If I ever have a breakdown in Japan, I can't just hop on a bus and go home...let alone call home or something. I want to go...but I really don't know. Hopefully I can sort out my emotions by next year so that way I can apply for spring of Junior year. Plus I need to learn how to speak Japanese soon...before I fall even more behind just because I can't speak it. I understand every word that comes out of my teacher's mouth, but the idea of forming a proper and correct sentence just doesn't work with me....Once again...I'm studying...like always *sigh* all this studying and I feel like I'm not getting anywhere, it suuucks. Japanese and Korean are taking over my life. Next semester I'm hoping to get into all my classes that I'm applying for. If I do, I would end up with 19 credits hoping to make up for my lack of credits this semester >.<. My schedule is gonna be tight and sucky, but anything to help me progress and not fall behind. I refuse to not graduate on time =(

Japanese compositions are faaaail >.< Especially when I have no idea how to form a proper Japanese sentence. I think that's what sucks about my language skills...I can understand probably 90% of what you say to me...but for me to respond back, that's a joke >.<.

I think I need to bring back the overly organized person I used to be in Highschool...and the over psychotic do-well-in-school person from middle school in order to actually stop being lazy and stuff.....wahhhh

Just bought Miyavi tickets....the things I do for this man. Now to get through October when all my midterms and tests are so I can reach the 28th is the new goal ^__^

3Part plan:

1. Buy tickets -check-

2. Figure out a way to get back to the city -semi check-

3. Figure out how to come back to Albany before 8AM.....

btw...it's freezing in Albany